Too Much For Me To Handle.

I've never prayed so hard for an animal to be kept alive in my life!

See, even when i was a child i never prayed THIS hard. Writing this down in a blog seems the only thing thats keeping me calm. That and the fact i just got out of the hospital yesterday at noon and just got back here at this hour. (2 a.m.) And my heart rate keeps pullin me back to reality every time i get too excited.

This kitten is only about six weeks old, has the cutest patterns on her, and is just overall very loving... she follows Betty and me around every time she see's us. But now it looks as if she might very well be dying. Seeing her so limp and fading was too much... i broke down... like seriously i was... and still might end up, going hysterical. And that mainly because it brought back memories when i was trying to raise a baby animal that was even younger than this one and it had died five days later. I'm surprised no one slapped me as hysterical as i was becoming. Fortunately, my friend Lucas, and my boyfriend, Adam, both kept their heads about them and they're on their way to the emergency vet hospital right now... if not already there.

I would have gone if Lucas had not thought it best for me to stay behind because of my unsettling emotions. I mean seriously i couldn't help but freak out half the time... and generally, i wasn't any good to them in my, then, present state.

I cried floods and prayed to the point where praying silently wasn't an option anymore... it's like i had to make sure God heard me. It's just too painful to keep silent about... Lucas nearly had to shake me to get me to calm down.

i never thought a day that had started so well would have come to such agony... I might be finalizing what may or may not be ready to happen but i would rather be pleasantly surprised to see this kitten better in a day or two than to not expect the worst.

(Note: for those who are wondering why i mention the supposed age. It's because this kitten was rescued by Lucas, who saw her ALMOST get hit by a car. So she's very special to him and Betty mainly, she's small as my hand and it burns a hole in my heart to see her so weak.)


I'll update later when i have more info to share.